do the tendon twitch

my mind racing
decernment out the window
thoughts come as fast as they go
as clumsy and shaken as this frame of a man
my blood hammering relentlessly at the walls of my weathered veins
my lily whites outlining her hills and valleys
my shivering nerves only magnify my insecurities
but she needs me now all the same
theres nowhere safer
than burying your cheeks in strangers beds
trust was never the issue
dependancy on the other hand
its the hardest thing ive learned to do
throwing yourself into the flickering blue light
tearing away your hearts hands after the fact
the point is to not get attached
its a perverse expectation
none the less
wet dream catcher
the movements of her mouth
the things she mutters
puncture my factories
making the forbidden fruit in my throat jump
a kamikaze attempt to murder me
committed by the natural enemy of the tight rope walker